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Jodisattva
About Me
Identification
- I Am
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I'm pretty sure i was one of those playground abductions at age 9. While playing with an origami fortune-telling thingy, I mysteriously lost consciousness at the top of a spaceship-shaped playground structure and reportedly fell down the hole, landing on the concrete below. I awoke to see all the children standing around, gawking. Somehow, although i had just fallen ten feet and landed on concrete, i was unharmed, except for a bit of blood on my left ear. It was strange to me that no one took me to a hospital to be checked out, they just took me home to my mom, who didn't even get up from the couch. She just told me to go lie down in my bed--the whole thing seemed wrong, like they all knew something. Maybe i'm reading too much into it, but as a parent, i know that if the school called and told me that my child had fallen ten feet and landed on the concrete, i would have warped myself there and taken my kid to the hospital immediately. I guess things were different in the 70's--we didn't wear seatbelts in the car and went trick-or-treating without adult chaperones.
Anyway, three years later, i had a dental appointment for a filling. The assistant told me to take off my earrings before the x-ray, which i did. After shooting the x-rays, the lady came and scolded me, saying that she'd asked me to remove my jewelry. I showed her that i had no jewelry on. Then she asked if i had ever had surgery before. I told her no. "then what is this?" she asked. There was a square grid about the size and shape of a Wheat Chex in my jawbone, glowing bright white in the x-ray. This puzzled the staff--no one had any idea what it could be. They just sort of dropped the matter and i'm not sure if they even showed the x-ray to my mom. To this day, i want to try and get my hands on that x-ray, because i have had x-rays three times since then and nothing like that has ever appeared in them.
The recall of both these incidents happened in 1997 when i was sitting in front of one of Roman Villagrana's paintings. It was a large horizontal piece depicting alien figures in various activities such as dancing and spinning records. I remember having been completely resistant to the concept of other life forms and often made jokes about people who believed in aliens. I hated seeing their cartoonish faces on rave decorations and when i looked at the beings in Roman's painting, it was really bothering me but i couldn't look away. This was when i flashed back to the playground incident and then the x-ray, but after piecing these things together, i shut down on it and refused to think or talk about it again.
Over the next few years, i listened to the Art Bell show a lot, and heard people talking about alien abductions. The feeling that came over me when i heard these stories was one of fear, resistance and denial. Any time i've tried to force myself to remember anything, i've felt unexplainable anger. At that time, i found myself very intrigued by the Annunaki and read a lot about them. Although i had rejected information i read and heard about the Pleiadians, Sirians and Grays, i believed what i read about the Annunaki and even became obsessed with their story.
At about this time, i believe i was contacted twice by "someone out there". The first time, i ate some mushrooms and was sitting behind the DJ booth at a party that i'd helped to throw at an underground dance club. I had my eyes closed and was listening to the music, when i heard my own voice speak to me. It said, "Don't be afraid, we are only here to gather information." Then i was shown a very entertaining mandala made of happy, chubby babies and garden of Eden-like pictures. I think this was in 1996 but i could be wrong. The next time i was contacted was probably in 1997. I had taken some mushrooms and was planning on spending the evening making music and art with friends. I went up into the loft to get something and was interrupted by two male beings and one female, who apparently wanted to have a meeting with me. They had something important they wanted to discuss with me. I found this annoying and rude, and told them that i was busy. They protested at first, but then gave up and went away. I did not hear from them again, to my knowledge.
Over the years, i have come to address my resistance to information and i've decided to just let it all in, trusting that my higher self will filter out what is not useful to me. So in light of this, i have attempted to contact anyone out there who will tell me something. I've opened myself up and not heard from them when i was seeking them. Only one other time was i spoken to, again on mushrooms and again, using my own voice. I was told, "Don't ever worry--we are helping you." Of course, i was like, "wait! who are you?" but i never got any information.
So i am left in the dark, knowing that i have some connections to someone but i don't know who or why, and i feel lost. It almost feels like being an orphan not knowing who your family is. I want to know more, and i want to know what i can do to help, and what they can help me with.
And this is why i am here. - Gender
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Female
- Birthday
- 24/12/1969
Coordinates
- City / Town
- kirkland/WA
- Country
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United States
- Website
- http://www.gypsypalace.com
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